Fighting with Anger
Written on November 27, 2009 – 7:06 am | by zacharyhatfield1990
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IMDB rating: 3.30 Plot: Ray (Fleming) is a young, beautiful and deadly assassin looking for answers about her past. Will (Willie Nelson) is her aging mentor who assigns her to a series of new jobs and may know more about her past than he is letting on. When an innocent woman is killed, Ray is faced with the pain of her past and a new nemesis that emerges from the shadows. Fighting With Anger is a non-stop martial arts action thriller filled with gripping mystery, blazing gun battles, and fast and furious hand-to-hand combat! |
Available versions:
DivX Version (Normal Quality), iPod/iPhone Version
Actors: Nelson Willie,Boatwright Jonathan,Batey Trant,Sulit Rommel,Stith Damon,Sewell Rayford,Mayer Thomas,Janes Lawren,Durrani Asad,Lee Ja-Il,Stephens Allen,Action,
Do I possibly have Borderline Personality Disorder on top of my Bipolar, OCD, and ADD?
I am 16 years old, and have been diagnosed with OCD, Bipolar type 2, and ADD (coupled with the nice anxiety attacks). I have looked at criteria for all of these conditions, but none of them seemed to completely fit me. That was until I stumbled upon Borderline Personality Disorder. I seem to fit it perfectly (though my self-harm is very minor). Another thing I noticed when I looked deeper into it is that some of the best working medications for Borderline PD happen to be what I am taking (Zyprexa and Lamotrigine).
here is how I fill in the criteria for Borderline PD:
1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.- I often lie to myself and build up fake memories to make myself feel better when it comes to people hurting me, so much so that I can’t remember which ones are real.
2. A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation - Even though I’m only 16, I have always had a hard time keeping close friends and boyfriends. My own mind seems to fight me and scares me into states of paranoia and I convince myself that the actions of my friends are wrong if they go against me and don’t want to be with me.
3. Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self - I can’t tell whether I love myself or hate myself. Sometimes I look at myself and think I am a pretty girl but other times I look in the mirror and my heart drops at how hideous I am. I also can’t tell whether I’m proud of myself because sometimes I feel intelligent, kind, and caring while others I feel stupid, selfish, and cruel. I can’t tell who I am.
4. Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging - I find myself doing things that I know will eventually end up emotionally hurting me (i.e. devoting myself to something I know will fail)
5. Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats or self-injuring behavior such as cutting, interfering with the healing of scars (excoriation) or picking at oneself. - I have the bad habit of scratching my skin with sharp scissors to make it bleed or bashing my head on walls and furniture until they break.
6. Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood - All of my friends think I am over-emotional about everything because I react so easily to just about anything. I’ll sob about the simplest things and get angry throw fits for the stupidest reasons.
7. Chronic feelings of emptiness - (here is where I am unsure) Sometimes I will get depressed and I will just lose myself. I’ll go numb and can’t think of anything except how worthless I am and how I’m always going to be how I am. I often can’t move until after at least an hour of sitting there like a statue. Sometimes it’s so bad that I can’t even cry.
8. Inappropriate anger or difficulty controlling anger - I throw fits like a 5 year old. Like I said before, I’m 16 yet I will start crying and screaming in public when I get angered. My bookcase has holes all over it from my head. I am so ashamed of myself afterward. People who don’t know me well say they could never imagine me doing anything like it. I have strict standards for myself and yet when I lose control I act like a monster.
9. Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation, delusions or severe dissociative symptoms - I’m extremely paranoid. It was mostly prominent in relationships. If my friend canceled hanging out with me, I will automatically assume she hates me and is actually going to hang out with someone else instead. With boyfriends, I would build up these situations in my head that scared me so much that I would break down into extreme depression and the paranoia would overwhelm me.
So please, am I stupid or do I have Borderline Personality Disorder? I’d like opinions before bringing it up with my psychiatrist. I don’t want her to think I’m crazier than I am.
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